Teaching is a losing battle

Teaching is a losing battle. At this point in my 6 month teaching career, I've come to realize that you can almost never win whenever it comes to teaching. Your students will perceive as hateful (which may be true at this point), your students will not listen (which is also true at this point), and sometimes parents and administration appear to question your management and teaching abilities.

At this point, teaching has been the most miserable experience of my life. No longer do I believe in this education gap, but also, no longer do I believe in what I'm doing to save it. Why have I become so cynical and negative towards the education system? Well, for one, the education system isn't totally at fault here. We all say that the kids here are disenfranchised and they don't have opportunities outside of their surroundings. Okay, true, I understand that. And to a SMALL degree, that's true. But what many people fail to realize is, the system is only that small part as to why young black kids do not receive the proper educaction. I dare to say, the kids are at fault...the kids disenfranchise themselves. I do everything within my power to give the kid kids what they need. What good have I done here? Most of the kids don't fucking care at all.

Whatever...I have to fucking plan for yet another lesson where kids will destroy.